The Ticking Time Bomb of Life

I have noticed as I get older the faster life passes me by. I have also noticed that I am far from being alone in this reality. Humanity as a whole feels more often than not that our lives instead of a beautiful, sacred gift, is more of a time bomb and before we realize it the timer declares ten seconds and of course we are left in complete and utter regret of things that could have been. If you think about (and if you are a pretty average person), half of our lives is spent asleep. This depresses me because as a human I have to sleep, so its inevitable to go around it so i can live a much more filled and longer life. Then I heard on television (what else), that an average person spends as much time on vacation as they do going to the bathroom. When I heard this, i thought "I have been on only a couple vacations throughout my life". Therefore if half my life is spent asleep and another part is spent going to the bathroom, that only leaves 1/3 or less of my life to really do what I want and truly live life to its fullest. I became very depressed.

However, right now I am sitting in my car and staring out the window. Its abotr a quarter till nine and the moon is just rising above the horizon. I think it odd that if I stare at it for a long period of time, I can never see it physically move. However, if I look away and come back to it in like five minutes or so, it has clearly moved and suprinsgly quicker than I had previously imagined. My question to you is  how come we feel like life rushes past us without warning of abandonment, but yet the moon moves slowly to its rightful place? Life often seems so filled with noise and commotion, but yet the moon moves in complete silence. When I look at this orange, opacque moon I don't see a ticking bomb or any kind of commotion or lethal weapon. I see peace and hope. If only I could find that kind of peace and hope for myself in my 1/3 of a lifespan.

I often feel like life is always running ahead of me and it never calls back to me to take a jump forward to catch up. Rather I am constantly catching my breath in attempt to reach something that may not even matter, but I wouldn't want to miss it nonetheless. I guess its time to give up my point to all of this rambling on. Life is so dear to me and I do perceive it as a gift from God. I want to reach out to my readers and challenge them that througout your busy lives take five mintues and watch the sun set. Or take five mintues and walk outside and breath in the fresh air and allow your ears to search for silence. Take five mintues and look around your family, take in their faces and expressions, and say a prayer of thanks for each of them for somehow, some way they provide some sort of hapiness into your life, but mostly they give and receive your love no matter what. Take five mintues to turn off the tv and your cell phone and take a breath and notice how your feeling inside. Take five mintues and truly love deeply, but most of all take five minutes and enjoy the life you have been given. You only get one and we are all allowed some happiness and some tranquilty in our lives.

Five minutes may not seem like a lot to change your whole perception of life, but if you only had five more minutes on your ticking bomb, those minutes, those seconds could feel like days. Nonetheless  they will soon run out. When the explosion hits, make sure that moment was in silence, peace, and if anything providing you hope for all your worries and expectations that lie in your future.

Awe Struck

Last night the snow kept falling. It was about eight inches by then, around midnight or so. I looked over the field, occupied by a few farm houses and minimal trees. The snow kept falling. the once yellow grass was now blanketed with white sheets of powder.  The ground became an untouched, sacred terrain as glistening, bright crystals overwhlemed the white substance and I was left in awe. I fixed my eyes on the crystals and suddenly they appeared to be floating just over the fallen snow, but somewhow still connected. It was as if the crystals wanted to accompany me on my life's journey but their fates were left up to the foundation they lay upon. Their destiny is short lived, for I knew they would cease to exist by morning by the illuminating, bright sun that would envelope them the following day. I reveled this moment, and tried to grasp the crystals for my own safe keeping, but to no avail. However, for that split second, I longed to be those crystals, despite their short lived existence. I wanted to look beautiful, and I wanted to be appreciated even if it were to be one person that would take notice, such as myself. I longed for the feeling of certanty that my creator did in fact create me for beauty and sacredness. I thought it odd that the ground became a symbol of light; a beacon of new beginnings, but the sky a dark erie lid containing the light. As if the world could never become fully illuminated. As I stood there and took in these moments, I felt that life is so precisous and dear. We only have so much time to do what we want and strive for what we dream. It saddened me to think that such beauty will soon disapate as the sun rises out over the horzon only in a couple hours from now. My nose became red and icy, numbness enveloped my hands, and I knew I was due back. Something out there wanted me to stand there all night and enjoy the last of its beauty and silence until it did in fact disppeare. I began to leave, despite the pull, I took another look and saw a light, opaque cloud in the far east corner of the sky. It told me that if one looks long enough and waits long enough the light will show itself to you and hope will be restored back ino you past, present, and future. The snow kept falliing as I put my back towards nature, but with a promise to always return.

"Give Me A Sign God!"

Ya know how people always say "Give me a sign God!". They always expect it to be clear and easy to achieve. I mean it should right? It obviously came from God. But in reality those signs are right in front of them, but they chose to ignore and not to admit them because its too hard or too complicated to achieve. Because we were not put on this planet to receive hints from God, so life is easier. We were put here to test our faith and become one with not only ourselves, but with the Lord and live our lives according to Him.
                                                                                                                                                     

I Want to Live Not Survive....Or Do I???

I am always saying that I want to live life not survive it. But I started thinking about it more. If there are no obstacles in life, or hardships  to overcome, what is life worth living for? If we are just sitting around with no surprises that's not living, that's just existing. To truly live, I think, we must live through the hardships, accept the obstacles, and love the people around you. To live life is to stick together with family and friends and love each other through all the obstacles and hardships we may face in our lives.

                                                                                         

Why Does Evil Exist?

It amazes me when I look at God's majesties of the world, like the mountains, the sky, clouds and rainbows that almost everywhere you look there is a human doing so much evil, and living around these ordinary miracles that God has given to us. Ya know I think that most humans overlook nature and God. Most people are so focused on the superficial things. Now grant it , we all cannot look at the sky or mountains all day, (although I would quite enjoy that), we all have our own responsibilities. But if we took just a small five minute break and actually see the beauty of grass growing or how slow tor fast the clouds are moving or at least watch (not glance) at the sunset each day...I wonder what the world would be like. Maybe there would be more environmentalists running around, but what ever it would come out of it......I know that it would definitely be beneficial to us as humans and to our planet. But the question still lingers........why are there still evil people in the world? Is it because we all sin at one point or another? Is evil just apart of our human nature? Well what ever the answer may be, I know one things is for sure.........is that if we just pay more attention to God's creation, maybe our world would become closer to god in our hearts, because God  is already close to us and to prove it.....just look at how the the wind slightly blows through the trees and you will see.